And now I’m even mooooore confused

Once upon a time, the planets and the fates, and all the stars aligned;
but I know, it always reaches the same end point.

I had a mixed feelings that I don’t know if I should be happy, sad, hopeful, or hopeless.

Of course my initial response was veryyy excited, that I’m afraid a quick-witted person would catch me in the act. Especially people that know me well.

I was literally breathless. My mind was racing with a lot of thoughts. I walked back and forth. I would say I did a good job in keeping myself reserved, but again, I don’t know if someone noticed.

But now, it ended again. Just like everything that has happened before. To be honest I’m quite sad and hopeless, but that’s the way it was always been.

Breathe in, breathe through, breathe deep, breathe out.
I’m lost in the labyrinth of my mind.