Day 8: The power of music
Ooh, it’s definitely powerful, in my life at least! I’m not a super religious and devoted person who is able to left music out of my life like some did. I don’t know, is music really haram in Islam?
I’m not religious enough to always go to Quran and other act of worship when I’m sad or happy. When I’m sad, I listen to music. When I’m happy, sometimes energetic music plays as the background song. When I’m doing chores, I always make sure the right song is in. Forgive me, God, but I’m still too attached to it.
Music did define me. In my opinion, my choice of genre and favorite songs did tell about my personality. Well I don’t know what others will think, though. I told you about my favorite songs in previous post, all the way down there. I loved them because I feel like I had some connection with them, I relate to them, or they remind me of something. But if others listen to it, I doubt they’d find any correlation with me 😂
Music reminds me of moments, places, people. Summertime Sadness always reminds me of 2015 in Bandung when we took a walk to some parks (Elderly Park?) and Geology Museum. Enchanted and Secret Love reminds me of someone back then in 9th grade. The Corrs’ songs remind me of elementary school days (Don’t Say You Love Me 🤣) and Fantasy Harvest Moon. All Too Well reminds me of my undergraduate thesis’ mental map questionnaire 😂 I don’t follow K-pop anymore, but I still listen to some old songs just to take me back to my memory lane. Junior high school was CNBLUE (tell me~) and Bigbang. 10th grade was A LOT of GD. 11th grade was Winner, Taeyang, and AKMU. Oh, how I remember waking up on 3AM to study while listening to RISE and PLAY, and play Onet. 12th grade maybe Bigbang? and Lee Hi too. Everytime I listen to 에라 모르겠다 and Girlfriend, I remember night on my friend’s house. Play with Fire reminds me of ArcGIS training on 3rd floor of campus.
See? There are still sooo many songs I can list to remind me of something, someone, somewhere. Sometimes, there is a song that reminds me of one thing, but I listened to it religiously on different occasion so the memory shifted to the recent one. Most of the time, it’d stick to more impactful memories, though. Sometimes, they even make me remembering or missing something I never had… or something that didn’t even happen to me… I don’t know how they do that.
When I’m sad, there are two possibilities I’d do with music. I’ll listen to happy songs to cheer me up, or I’ll listen to sad songs because I want to drown myself in sadness. Music could soothe my weary state, or drown me in the sea of sadness. Or when I hadn’t listen to music for some time, I’ll put my headset on and play some music.
(ok my laptop just had a blue screen although I did nothing but write here 😂)
Ok it just had blue screen for the second time. It made me lose my sparks to continue writing. Maybe this is its way to show rebellion to me. Maybe it wants to say “I had it worse”. Besides, I think the message’s conveyed already, although I haven’t talked about how I feel when I listen to music, how my brain responded, etc. I talked too much about my opinion and memories instead. Well then, good night! (before the 3rd attack strikes)